I was in an unfamiliar house in England. It was very long and large and located in an upper-class suburb. I do know that I was visiting the new house of the family I was nanny for in England (although this is nothing like the house they live in now which is an ancient mansion). It was years later and the children were grown. I think I was with the current ‘nanny’.
Someone was trying to get into the house and we were a bit worried. I rang the emergency number but didn’t know the address of the house I was in. Not knowing the address or where we were, disturbed me; really disturbed me.
This is a typical nightmare for me. Another version is that I don’t know where I live so I don’t know how to get home. My mind is a complete blank. It really freaks me out. In some of my older dreams, I manage to find my way ‘home’ to the house that I lived in until I was fourteen… Someone else is living there and they do not know me. This also really upsets me.
Previously I have likened a house or building to the mind of the dreamer but I think in your dreams, the home is a metaphor for your identity. Not knowing the address of the house is akin to not knowing who you are; hence the ‘disturbed’ emotional response to the dream.
A quick look at your astrological chart shows Neptune and the moon in Scorpio in your first house. Emotional security is central to your identity but you lack trust that your needs will be met. Just when you think you know who you are – or, as in the dream, where you’re at – it disappears.
Take note of what is happening in your life when you have these dreams. Likely, something is occurring that is making you feel insecure and your subconscious mind goes searching for an anchor. These anchors are often in the past and for you, they are related to home, family and a sense of belonging.
The recurring dream is set in different locations that have at various times been your home. In the recent dream, you visit the new home of your ‘nanny’ family. In this instance your role is clear and you know the people but the environment is unfamiliar. In the older dream where you return to your childhood home, it is upsetting to be unknown in a familiar environment. There is always discord, a rupture.
Your subconscious is bringing your inner search for a strong sense of self identity to your waking attention. As the dream is recurring, this is a key part of your life’s journey.